My Path Finding Era: A ramble on my New Years Resolutions
2025.12.31
My Path Finding Era: A ramble on my New Years Resolutions
Ah, New Year's Eve. I am not going to try to be special or unique. I am going to just be a basic bitch and talk about resolutions. Not so cliche that I talk about how resolutions are fake and gay, cause boy is that over played by people who think they are intellectuals. But I am going to give it an earnest thought. If for no other reason to force me to reflect on my life.
Warning, I am drunk and I am rambling about my life. If you want a coherent blog post this is not the one.
For many years I have made a slogan for the year + era. For example: “My Ground Building era”. This has made making goals very focused and has created a general vibe for the year that I find helpful. Gives a sort of direction. I am not sure what direction I want this year to go in. In general I have felt pretty directionless. Maybe what I need is direction. Should my slogan be “My direction finding era”? Maybe.
If that is the case that begs the question, what should my goals then be? What can I do to try and find direction? …I am googling the answer to that now.
OK WELL ACCORDING TO THE GOOGLE SEARCH AI THE ANSWER IS: “self-reflection on passions, values, and curiosity; taking action through small goals, new experiences, and helping others; and seeking support from mentors or therapy, all while embracing the journey and accepting uncertainty as a normal part of growth”.
Passions, values, and curiosity, huh. Welp, I feel like I am exploring a lot of those things with this website. So I guess a NYR could be to keep up to date on this shit. Don’t abandon this project as it kind of is a catch all for all of those things and also is prioritizing a value of mine by its very nature (having cool internet again).
Another thing that I am doing this year is reading, which is mainly because my bookshelf on here is depressing af. But that’s why I have to keep the website up to date lmao. But also now I am in a book club online, so that should be interesting. My bf is also hosting a reading challenge and now if I don’t win I am a loser. So reading should definitely happen. Art also follows a similar vibe where the website kind of forces me to continue making things.
Something the website does not force me to do though is the whole community thing. Community and political activism is def a value of mine. And requires talking to humans which is good for finding direction (it said so further along in the AI response). I also know exactly where to go and when to go. I’m having a wall though. Like for some reason the whole idea stresses me. That said I could really use a passionate political fling. That’s always hot. But I should probably find a way to force it. Ehh. But new experiences, it says !! The tug of war in my mind.
I also guess I should keep going to school or whatever for no other reason than to get a bachelor's degree so I have more visa prospects. Visa prospects are good.
Now to address the elephant in the room. The mother fucking gym.
I think I want to prioritize my steps over the gym this year. I am gonna have a dog so that’ll give me the push. WALKING IS GOOD. And also, it gets me outside which is A+. I still should go to the gym though cause I hate myself when I don’t go to the gym and I love myself when I go to the gym. It really is that simple. Going to the gym boosts my ego and gives me a god complex which is sexy. Go get sexy you fuck head.
I don’t know that’s all I got… is that giving direction? Is that the vibe…? Maybe I should condense the list hold on.
1. Website 2. Read 3. Art 4. Activism 5. Move body
Is that giving direction finding????? I don’t think so tbh
I feel like it is missing some new experiences energy… BUT I feel like between looking for places to walk and reading new shit and doing activism that is new experiences????? I DON’T KNOW.
I think any thing can be direction finding if you go at it with the right mindset….maybe? I don’t know that sounded like a smart thing to say
Maybe a goal should be to talk to people? Ew. I literally not even joking vomed in my mouth a bit writing that (it really is just from the carbonation in the bubbly but shhhhh). But maybe. But I think that also comes from activism stuff. Also if I keep doing neocities stuff. I gotta find a way to be more social here idk. I gotta at least start with a key chain. I also wanna had a website highlight to my home page…. And there is the book club…. I GUESS I WILL BE MEETING NEW PEOPLE
Okay I am done rambling about this for now. I think I got all of my thoughts on the matter out of the way. I know this reads more like a diary entry and it sort of is. But I am posting anyways cause now you can see how I think or something idk.
If you read this godbless your heart. I love you. Till next time
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